Transforming Hardship: Embracing Abundance Beyond Struggles
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Chapter 1: The Year of Abundance Misunderstood
At the beginning of the year, many were proclaiming it would be a time of abundance. I had hoped this meant relief from my overwhelming stress. Unfortunately, instead of joy and prosperity, I've encountered a series of challenges. I realize now that I should have specified what kind of abundance I truly sought.
Every time I think I’ve conquered one hurdle, another one emerges, often more daunting than the last. I'm exhausted, and the mere thought of facing yet another challenge feels like too much to bear. Despite my reluctance, I understand I have no choice but to confront my circumstances.
My current stress levels are unsustainable, and I am aware of the toll this anxiety could take on my health. I can’t afford to be unwell, nor can I handle the added stress-induced complications. While I could focus on my deficits, I choose to strategize through this minefield of obstacles. My starting point is gratitude.
Gratitude does not erase hardship; it merely coexists with it.
On sleepless nights, when anxiety grips me, I count my blessings as if they were sheep. I find that gratitude does not eliminate my difficulties; I am thankful while still grappling with challenges. I don’t abandon gratitude, but I recognize it isn’t the sole solution.
"Being grateful does not mean that everything is necessarily good. It just means you can accept it as a gift."
Section 1.1: The Power of Movement
The anxiety bubbling within me threatens to paralyze my day. Drawing from past experiences, I know I can either succumb to it or take action. Despite the sweltering Georgia heat, I propose a family walk. We cover over five miles, and the sweat feels as purifying as tears.
We stay hydrated and take frequent breaks. My dog appreciates the excursion more than the hours spent staring at the ceiling overwhelmed by stress. We enjoy sunshine, fresh air, and exercise; even if we encounter a few mosquito bites, I no longer feel suffocated by my circumstances. I can breathe again, even if stress lingers.
Research supports that regular exercise can alleviate stress, enhance sleep, elevate mood, and improve physical health. Although venturing outside in the heat was not appealing, I knew that remaining indoors would only amplify my anxiety. Opting for action proved vital for my well-being.
Section 1.2: The Art of Expression
As a professional writer, expressing my feelings through words is my primary coping strategy. Initially, admitting my struggles was difficult; I felt embarrassed. Living my dream as a single mother in my forties yet still searching for financial stability is a tough position. So, I write about my hardships and the stress that follows.
There’s relief in acknowledging my situation, even amidst the struggles. I also share my feelings with a supportive friend who listens without judgment. She allows me to express my concerns without criticism or unwelcome advice.
However, I must also set boundaries with well-meaning loved ones who inadvertently exacerbate my stress. One person continually sends me housing listings, suggesting I sell my home for a cheaper alternative. I explain that this isn’t a viable plan for me. I’ve built a home here, and while I appreciate their concern, this strategy does not alleviate my stress; it heightens it. I need opportunities, not advice.
Chapter 2: Tapping into Resourcefulness
Having faced numerous hardships, I’ve developed a strong sense of resourcefulness. I attribute this to my Capricorn nature and innate stubbornness. When circumstances worsen, I assess my options. I scrutinize my budget to identify potential savings, but recognize there’s little room for adjustment. Thus, I consider ways to increase my income.
I focus on survival mode, channeling my energy into what I can do now, leaving future concerns for later. I maintain a large garden to help reduce grocery costs and anticipate the arrival of fresh eggs from my chickens. I also have a list of free activities for summer with my kids. Though I may not enjoy my current situation, I know I can manage it, even on tough days.
I keep pushing forward. This is essential. Struggles—whether financial, medical, or emotional—can feel overwhelming, pushing us to our limits. Yet, we must persevere. We continue trying, refusing to give up even when we feel like it.
I came across a lovely acronym: H.O.P.E. — Hold On, Pain Ends. I wrote it on a rock in my garden, reminding myself that every struggle has an endpoint. Better days await us; we just need to be present to witness them.
The video titled "WATCH HOW GOD WILL TURN YOUR SEASON OF HARDSHIP INTO SEASON OF ABUNDANCE - CHRISTIAN MOTIVATION" echoes this sentiment, emphasizing that hardships can lead to blessings. It inspires viewers to remain hopeful and resilient through their trials.
I make self-care a deliberate priority. My anxiety often robs me of sleep. Initially, I relied on melatonin but worried it might disrupt my body’s natural rhythm. I switched to CBD some nights and explored sleep meditations, binaural beats, and soothing nature sounds. I prepare herbal teas for better sleep, adjust the temperature, and create a cozy environment.
Although I might only get half the sleep I once enjoyed, I persist because I know I’m not at my best when tired. While I wish for a different type of abundance—one free from problems—I must confront reality. I focus on what exists rather than what I wish it to be.
Despite waking up stressed, I plan my day with intention. I begin by writing about my feelings, which provides some relief. I also anticipate a yoga session later and spending time with my kids and pets. Although my problems won’t resolve today, this is still my life. I remain grateful, stressed, and committed to moving forward, believing that better days are ahead.